Tears...

If every drop was a melodious note
Strung together to make a symphony
My tears would sing a love song
Though drenched in dry melancholy

If these crystals danced and twirled
Hopelessly upon my cold cheek
Up on their toes, as Gisele, they would
Perform till my eyes go bleak

If these droplets were pearls
Part of a silent rosary
Every prayer to God would be for you
Till these oysters became weary

If a kaleidoscope of colours they were
Painting a wish, a thought, a reverie
My muse would just be memories.
Times now lost in history!

If these were scattered letters,
Speaking the language of my heart,
Every syllable. every unspoken word.
Would recite the aching saga of being apart

No dream, no dance, no sound,
Not even a prayer painted by me.
A transparent feeling, moist yet arid,
Every tear is a reminder that I need thee!

i dance...

my music is the sound of silence

rhythm is in the echo of laughter from days gone

shadows of the past are my audience

don't pity me for i dance alone

joy is a long lost friend

happiness, a rare visitor.

hope and faith are a flickering flame

i dance for no willing spectator

dreams. i have none. for i don't sleep

desires. yes, each day they're new

your applause and praise won't make me bow

for i no longer dance for you

so lost... i trampled on the heart of love.

guilty. i wait for kiss of its poison

wishing i'll ascend into the light

where i can dance again. eternity to oblivion...

Dreamworld

Some call them castles in the wind
And some tag them as fairytales
A land where dreams are reality
And happy endings… a new beginning

Desires are overrated
Emotion, no more underrated
This magic never leaves you alone
Love is everything, but underestimated

Enter the gates of passion
Where wishes run wilder than stallions
Angels walk with you, elves serenade you
And each moment seems like millions

Woven with a silver thread
Careful! They are fragile
Come dream a sweet dream with me
Just for a little while

The Kiss of Dawn

Upon my soft cheek
You left that silken touch
Like the kiss of dawn upon the skies
Like a song I love very much

Oh! Hold me again in those arms
Let me feel alive like the sun
From the eerie darkness within
The kiss of dawn has won

Let me soar high with you
Feel the wind under my wings
And to the kiss of dawn we fly
Like the birds that dance and sing

How wonderfully different this feeling is
How complete this love seems
Like upon the blushing blue sky
The kiss of dawn gleams

Long after the sun has set
And the moon and stars are gone
You stay with me in my heart
And return with the kiss of dawn

I'll Be There

When the world turns its back
And nothing seems to go right
When you feel weary and tired
And need to be hugged tight
I’ll be there

When you’re as happy as could be
And feel you can touch the sky
Or when you think you’ve lost
And need a shoulder to cry
I’ll be there

When you’re feeling lonely
And your smile seems to fade away
When you need someone who cares
To make beautiful your day
I’ll be there

When you need a heart to love,
A ear to listen and a hand to hold
Don’t hesitate to look by your side
Coz I’ve already told…
I’ll always be there!

ode to who?

So for him I write these lines
Last night, who came in my dreams.
For his love’s sake, this world itself I’d forsake,
And awaken in a land where desires have wings.

Can’t believe that isn’t a choice anymore
So for jest I pen down these mysterious thoughts
Famous ol’ Poe did it too, a long, long time ago.

In secret, yet right before thine eyes, lies
That treasure by which he’s known to the world
Oh can you figure the three words so dear to me?
That are found, nestled beautifully, at the end of a prayer too.

I am beginning to blush seeing half of it here, already!
Exceedingly childish that may seem to many…
Ain’t luv quite a crazy little thing, honey?

Look closer dear; he hides between the lines.
From naught you’d have to ascend to find
The three immortal words that are my light of happiness

Alas! Though like a jewel each letter sparkles before thee
You’d neither understand this love, nor this riddle… let it be.

Star of Estel

An evening star shines alone
Burning away in the night
A star reveling in its solitude
In the shadows the only light.

To guide the lost he wanders the skies,
And keeps alive their lamp of belief.
While he burns itself every night,
In the oil of melancholy and grief

Some look up at him in the dark
And find solace... a friend.
Yet, some question his privilege
Of being closer to heaven's tent.

His beauty shines through the darkness
In light, though around, none can see.
As a quiet spectator of the world
The Eleanor lives his days in irony.

So long he has been afar
That he believes it to be his destiny
A mere spec in the shadow he calls himself
When he's the king of the entire galaxy

No treasure. No love. Nothing to hold on to
No dream. No desire. He has no one.
Just light and hope to give away.
A silver soul makes his only possession.

But the rarest of lessons he's taught me
A lesson none other can understand
The joy of oneness of souls he gifted me
Though he lives in a far, far away land

Like a dear yet distant dream
He says, “I will fade away one day”.
I'll walk beyond the seas then
Just to be close to my
Star of Estel

i feel you

The morning rays awake me
With a soft caress
I blush as I feel you greet
With your eyes on me

And when the zephyr
Whispers in my ear
I hear you talk to me
As you kiss my cheek

To a quiet symphony
I see our souls dance
Creating our own magic
Singing our own song

When the whole world
Curses the blazing sun
I welcome the warmth
As I feel you embrace me

And the playful raindrops
Are also sent by thee
So I can remember the times
When you tease and tickle me

Times when my eyes get moist
And I can no longer stand
You sit beside my pillow
And in my dreams hold my hand

Not like a shadow
That’s a slave of the light
I sense you follow me
Even when you’re not around

surreal dreamz

Stolen kisses, a whispering WISH
Your arms draw me to an eternal embrace
I enter BLISS

Frozen moments, racing HEARTS
Somewhere in between I lose myself
Sanity DEPARTS

To be or not to BE
Forgotten dilemmas fade away
It's just you and ME

Sleepless nights, a land of DREAMS
One magic makes this night complete
All is SURREAL

i remember

Every drop, every flower;
Every touch, every whisper;
Every moment, every hour;
Every breath, every thought
Seems to be embedded in my mind
From naught to the time
You walked out the door.
O! My poor heart wonders now
If the tears that moisten
These dreamy eyes
Are in the melancholy of your farewell
Or the reason of the outpour lies
In the joy of knowing you, loving you,
And still finding you near…

The Blessing & The Curse

One day God said to me,
“A special gift I have for you, my child.
Though, all around you may be fell
This gift will make you smile.”

Joyfully I accepted the gift
As it showered from up above
And thanked Him each day
For the beautiful gift of Love

“But be careful my dear”
Said the Lord unto me
“Don’t mix it with worldly pleasures
And you’ll learn to love like Me.”

Hurriedly I took the advice
Too eager to use my gift
And soon found myself
Oblivious to ever receiving it

So lost was I in my world
That I didn’t realise when,
Sanity departed and I drowned,
In the love I found for him.

Beyond all measure
Beyond all imagination
Beyond all reason and doubt
I loved like I had never before
I loved and never looked back

Unconditionally like the Lord does
I love him even when he does not
But shortly creped in the vices
That I so merrily had forgotten

“But Lord I am only human
How can I not think and want?”
I finally argued in vain.
“My child, you were clearly warned”

So as the joy of love
Fills my heart and soul
Desires, needs and questions
Haunt me in the night

For I love with the love of the Lord
Till my mind takes control
And pierces my loving heart
With arrows so cold

But so beautiful is His love
A blessing for my soul
That I accept the curse it brings
Accept being a mortal after all

Sometimes...

sometimes i wanna lean... and feel my world lies within the arms that hold me
sometimes when i fall down... i look up to you
sometimes i wish... for dreams to turn to reality
sometimes i go quiet... hoping you'll understand what's left unsaid
sometimes i hurt... when i fail to make you understand that your love's no addiction, no boredom, no obsession for me
sometimes i fear... i'll lose myself and you'll be alone, not me
sometimes i call your name... just to feel the joy it brings to my heart
sometimes i listen... to hear if you're calling my name
sometimes i let go... though i know waves will drown me someday
sometimes i cry... for i wish you'd come and hold me close
sometimes i sing... a tune long forgotten. just for memories sake
sometimes i stop... to see if you are around as you said you'll be
sometimes i wonder... if you stop a moment to think about me
sometimes i pray... for peace and happiness as you sleep beside me
sometimes i have questions... because there are answers my heart doesnt wanna believe
sometimes i go away... only to see if you'll come looking for me
sometimes i act strong... just so you would come lean on me
sometimes i hold your hand... to let you know i'm there anytime you need me
sometimes i need you... like the very air that i breathe
sometimes i wait... not for time. not for life. not for fate. but for you. 'cuz, alone, i cant move ahead...